But God just has a different direction for my blog today. So I apologize if any of ya’ll were looking forward to that. Ha.
I’ve always thought I was being called to Africa to minister to the people of Africa. That would make sense, right? But throughout a month of being here I’ve realized that’s not why God sent me to Africa. Obviously I’m ministering to the people of Africa, and I will continue to, and continue to pray that BIG things happen within these people. BUT. My sole purpose of being here is to minister to my team-mates. Which is so weird to me. I’ve always imagined myself changing Africa and impacting tons of people here. But in reality, I’m not going to. That’s not the reason God wanted me here. And I walk SO confidently in that.
My ministry is my team. God has brought me all the way to Africa, to minister to a bunch of Americans. Which is a really tough and surreal realization for me. I feel like I’ve been let down. And since I feel that way, I KNOW that this is what God needs me to do. I’m going to have to deny myself daily, and become selfless. Which is crazy because that has been my prayer all along…to deny myself daily and become selfess. Who knew that it would be for the sole cause of my team-mates being affected by it. My daily actions and words are my ministry tools now.
The way God works blows my mind. He brought me to Africa to be selfless for the people I’m surrounded by daily. 10 Americans. It’s rough giving up a dream of impacting tons of African people, but it’s getting easier to grasp and I walk confidently knowing that this is what God wants of me. And what HE wants is way way way better than anything I can plan for myself. God’s teaching me daily to pick up my cross and deny myself. He’s teaching me what it means to be a follower of Christ. He’s teaching me to trust in His plan.
Random Things:
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The alpha staff think that my name is “Medicine” so every time they see me, they say something along the lines of…”Medicine! I’m not feeling so well, I just need to swallow you up!” Yep.
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We are going to the “bush” for a week. Which is the middle of nowhere Africa. I’m so pumped! No showers, no toilets, who knows where I’m sleeping, and who knows what I’ll be eating. But literally I’m so excited.(This is how you know I’m a changed woman. Because I’m excited about this.)
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The other day a guy in the church prayed over me, Katelyn, Adam, and Sara that we would get married to our “love interests.” it was one of the funniest things I’ve ever been a part of.
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I have a pocket knife here that I like to clean my nails with. Literally every single time I’ve opened it I slice the crap out of my finger and it gushes blood for like 15 minutes. I’m not meant to carry a knife. Or have clean fingernails.
Side note-I love hearing from ya’ll! Thanks so much for actually looking at these blogs and commenting. It actually gives me motivation to write a blog. Haha.
