Before I left for Uganda everyone was telling me "you're never going to be the same again" or "you're life is going to be flipped upside down ".
In a lot of ways those words are true. I definitely have a larger appreciation for the things I took for granted. Drinking water from the sink, stove tops, and garbage service to name a few. Those are the things you never really learn the value of until you are forced to live without. I definitely have learned a lot about improvisation.
We are two weeks in and things have been rather different, but I very much feel like the same old me.
I know change happens gradually, but for some reason I was expecting an immediate 180 change. For some of my teammates that has been the case, but not for me.
You know what? I am okay with that. I know I can't compare my experiences with my teammates because The Lord moves in so many different ways. In many ways the things he has been revealing to others, he has already been revealing to me through the painful process of walking with him through the refiners fire. The past two years have been a nonstop process of being broken and made new. I am so glad and rejoice that I have made it through by his grace.
What the lord has for me in Uganda? I haven't a clue. It's all up to him. All I can say is that I am happy that he is not finished with me yet. I may feel like the same old me, but I have faith that he will continue to make me more and more into the woman of god he has made me to be. He will continue to refine me and break me for his glory. Amen.
