Fear is something that has always held me back. It is something that I let control me sometimes and it can tend to stop me from doing things that God has for me. It has seemed like at training camp, this is something that kept coming up for me. Not necessarily the fear of going to Uganda, but the fear of leaving behind everyone at home, the fear of spending 4 months with complete strangers, the fear of not knowing what God has for me, and so many more fears. It seems to all boil down to fear.
I hate that I let fear control me, i hate that it often decides for me whether or not I will do something. Over this past weekend, I have given up that control over my life. I have decided to be courageous! This doesn't mean that I won't have fear, but it does mean that I will choose to trust in God no matter how scared I may be.
The worship leader from this weekend shared this song that he wrote, and it has definitely been a theme song for this weekend. The lyrics are:
"The Lion of Judah's thundering deep,
roaring down the walls of fear in me,
and from deep inside this battle cry,
you Roar!!
So even though I may still have doubts and fear in my life, God is roaring those walls down and allowing me to trust in him completely. It may be a daily battle, but I just have to choose to be courageous and follow after the one who created me and called me on this journey.
Tomorrow we will get on a plane for our long airplane ride to Uganda! I'm so excited to finally get there and begin all the ministries we will be doing!
