So, back in August God gave me a vision, below is a journal entry of what I saw:
God was sitting at a small simple wooden table pouring Himself into a piece of paper.
"I'll make her eyes blue." He said, and He continued to describing this girl He was drawing. He was extremely excited about this girl on the paper. I've never seen someone that excited.
Soon He wasn't able to contain Himself and was no longer sitting, but dancing around the table.
Then Jesus comes in to see what the Father is excited about.
"Jesus! Come look at who I made!"
Jesus comes over to the table, and His face lights up as He sees what the Father created. "She's going to travel with us." Jesus says, "And. . . and she'll love knowing hat We have a hold of her right hand."
The two shout, hoot, and holler about the girl in the picture. Soon the two are dancing and calling for the Holy Spirit.
"What's going on?" He asks as He comes in.
Jesus and the Father pull the Holy Spirit to the table and tell Him about the girl they created. The Holy Spirit smiles great big. "She's going to love smiley faces, and be reminded of Our love for her and the world when she sees one. She'll find one in anything and become giddy and excited!"
As the three pour themselves into creating the girl on the paper and make plans for her life they begin to once again to dance, it almost looks as if they're floating. Then they start singing their love for her and all they will do in her life.
This goes on for what seems like days, and they don't seem to get tired of dancing, singing and planning.
I begin to wish I could see this spectacular girl they are excited about. The next thing I see was so amazing. I was able to see the paper the three poured themselves into. The paper was me!
Why am I sharing with you a vision God gave me almost 2 months ago? Well, first, the past month and a half (and actually a lot of time before that) I've struggled with the way people view me and how God views me. I've wondered am I really beautiful? Yeah, people tell me, but I still wondered and doubted.
Since being here in Uganda, God has been speaking to me who I am, and how He sees me. One of those attributes He's been speaking into me is the beauty He has placed in me, and that He has made only beauty in everything.
The second reason is: this past week, we took some time to speak encouraging words over each other. When it came to my time, many things were said but something was said that triggered my mind back to this vision. Zach said, "God just dances with joy over you."
Cool, right? Two months later after having a vision, God tells one of my team members to tell me the same thing! All week I've struggled with God, arguing and such with Him, and I've finally come to a place where I can begin to believe Him.
He DOES think I am beautiful, and He DID create me beautiful inside and out. He HAS made me pure. He HAS made me whole, and complete. He DOES see me as perfect. He DOES dance for joy over me.
And you know what? He does the exact same thing over you!
